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Feb. 24th, 2005 @ 03:36 pm
you know Its been a long time since I have posted well I am in Quesnel right now..........I think things have come to a close not too sure with james and I. but well you know the same shit eh! but well I dont care as badly anymore if it ends! it would suck well you know! I have something I MUST do in quesnel and well PATTI I will tell one day when I call you when I can okay?
I think I see my meaning! I am here to do what i gotta do.
I miss you all so much I miss Vancouver but yeh! gotta go chase after a couple kids I am babysitting right now!

something what you think? Jan. 7th, 2005 @ 04:13 pm
Touture me by your words
forgive me for what you have done
and in the end it about you
Only you
Trapped in this box
Never know where to go
Entranced by your gaze
Nothing is good enough

I contradict myself
I am me
And with you
I am a Mold
I am me and a mold
I play what you want to see
Inside I am me
With you I am not me
And without you I am not me
You are my molder
My creator
My life
I was something when I met you
Now I am greater

Never able to leave you
Just constantly Loving you
Knowing ou Need me
We both cant be alone
Fighting for strength to understand
What you are
You’re my Charmer
Your Mine
And I don’t think I could leave you
Ever




Rejected

She left you behind
Never to see you again
Till you were 19
Just to reject you again
Your pain never shown
Your dead inside
3 great loves lost
that made you Hard
so when the right one cames along
she trys to make you live
see what love can be

you know love in the bad way
because you were rejected
rejected
rejected by many
but not by me
I love you

I want you see I know you
I know your pain
I what man you are
Old
Dirty
Perverted
Cheater
Womanizer
Controlling
Manipulating

You know love in the bad way
Because you were rejected
Rejected
Rejected by many
But not by me
I love you

Your colors show
I know you Fucked her
I know you love her and not me
I know you still love them
I know you hurt when you see them
You harber guilt inside
You know you could control us

But me
I stand up
And you hate it
We fight and break
I keep coming back
Like a battered woman
I am like you
No mommy to love me
We fear the same thing but I am
Stronger than you
I am a Woman

I stay because you will love me again
You see what we have in common
You take me back
Because I too was rejected

We knew love in the bad way
Because we were rejected
Rejected
Rejected by many
But not by each other
I love you

Jan. 7th, 2005 @ 01:47 pm
Rejected

She left you behind
Never to see you again
Till you were 19
Just to reject you again
Your pain never shown
Your dead inside
3 great loves lost
that made you Hard
so when the right one cames along
she trys to make you live
see what love can be

you know love in the bad way
because you were rejected
rejected
rejected by many
but not by me
I love you

I want you see I know you
I know your pain
I what man you are
Old
Dirty
Perverted
Cheater
Womanizer
Controlling
Manipulating

You know love in the bad way
Because you were rejected
Rejected
Rejected by many
But not by me
I love you

Your colors show
I know you Fucked her
I know you love her and not me
I know you still love them
I know you hurt when you see them
You harber guilt inside
You know you could control us

But me
I stand up
And you hate it
We fight and break
I keep coming back
Like a battered woman
I am like you
No mommy to love me
We fear the same thing but I am
Stronger than you
I am a Woman

I stay because you will love me again
You see what we have in common
You take me back
Because I too was rejected

We knew love in the bad way
Because we were rejected
Rejected
Rejected by many
But not by each other
I love you


Alone

Touture me by your words
forgive me for what you have done
and in the end it about you
Only you
Trapped in this box
Never know where to go
Entranced by your gaze
Nothing is good enough

I contradict myself
I am me
And with you
I am a Mold
I am me and a mold
I play what you want to see
Inside I am me
With you I am not me
And without you I am not me
You are my molder
My creator
My life
I was something when I met you
Now I am greater

Never able to leave you
Just constantly Loving you
Knowing ou Need me
We both cant be alone
Fighting for strength to understand
What you are
You’re my Charmer
Your Mine
And I don’t think I could leave you
Ever

MERRY christmas Dec. 26th, 2004 @ 06:11 pm
merry christmas everyone.......

what do you think all? Nov. 16th, 2004 @ 04:08 am
I don't think you will
ever fully understand
how you've touched my life
and made me who I am.

I don't think you could ever know
just how truly special you are
that even on the darkest nights
you are my brightest star.

I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
how you've made my dreams come true
or how you've opened my heart
to love and the wonders it can do.

You've allowed me to experience
something very hard to find
unconditional love that exists
in my body, soul, and mind.

I don't think you could ever feel
all the love I have to give
You are an amazing person
and without you I don't know where I'd be.
Having you in my life
completes and fulfills every part of me.

I will always keep falling in love with you
We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.
I love you not only for what you are,
but for what I am when I am with you.
Other entries
» hee hee YAY
HEY ALL! well when I get back to Van I am going to be going back to school so you all will have to continuedealing with Broke Lindsay maybe not as much cause I will be livinig with my dad but at leats its stability and shit.
I am getting my GED first then I am going to go to VCC I think for hair and make-up! YAY lindsay getting her life in the right lane I"S IS SMRT LOL anyways any know where I can get my nipple re-peirced for cheap or free I have the jewelry? and I think I am going to get my lip done (THANX PATTI) and my tounge!!1 LOL anyone know where I can get that done cheap or free?? LOL
let me know! MY dad would KILL ME but HA HA HA HA I dont care I am just a weirdo!!
» WOW
well visiting my dad has been interesting! got into a fight with him and got some of the truth out and I made him Cry......that was a first! but so far its going okay!! miss you james! miss you sarah, patti everyone!!!
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well it seem as if james has dumped me 100% on sunday. I thought that we could worked things out, but well because things were misunderstood I guess he rather move on to someone else like a few days later eh JAMES????
well almost 3 years WASTED what lovely way to have spent it! well not totally wasted but to move on to someone else like days later thanx
» heres to rachel
well as we all know someone in the familiar goth scene has died, and even though I did know her really at all except in breif introductions......I will assume from all her knew she was a sweet girl and All I have to say is "HERES TO YOU RACHEL" there is a semi memorial for her tonight at the cambie 8 pm its open invite and so on. I hope to see you all there to have a drink in the memory of rachel adams!!! a sad tragic ending to a young, nice girl.
» APPY finally...
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